October Edition: My thoughts on…thoughts

Thoughts…

Woof. Do you overthink everything? Does being alone with your thoughts sound as appealing as a trip to the gyno?

I spend so much time thinking, and then re-thinking, and then over-thinking that I end up in a very unpleasant place in my head. I so badly want to be one of those people who can just “let it be” or embrace “if it’s meant to happen it will.”

I have to think about every possible outcome, the different paths to get to the outcomes, and what I’ll be cooking for dinner in the process of getting to said outcomes. It’s exhausting, and I cannot for the life of me turn it off.

I’ve tried meditation, which I am good at, but it also leaves you alone with your thoughts so it can backfire pretty quick. While I very much have a problem with over thinking, I am also a firm believer in your thoughts can control your life.

If you think happy thoughts, happiness comes to you. Negative thoughts pull more negative energy to you and voila, you are sad. As of late, I’ve really been trying to embrace “giving it to God” and stepping back on the thoughts, worry, doubt, fear, etc, while focusing on every possible positive energy in my life.

Well guess what, that’s freakin hard. I don’t think I’ve made it a full day yet, but, I’m not a quitter, and will continue to try and heal this part of me. I dream of a day when I feel so much peace and acceptance that I just glide through life only thinking about what to cook for dinner.

I’ve always liked this quote:

“overthinking, the art of creating problems that weren’t even there”

(but what if they ARE there… you see the problem)